Thursday, January 8, 2009
Have you ever?
Have you ever.... reached for the radio knob to turn the volume of your child's voice while in the car? Yep--- just did it today and I don't think it was the first time...
It's utterly strange to me that I am here in this life-- asking the question Have you ever and having it end in such a way.
When I was in college, I played a game once or twice called "I never..." someone said something like... "I've never-- fill in the blank-- fallen in love, done the walk of shame, fallen asleep in class while sitting in the front row..." *note to any Razvi who happens to read this... I have been in love, I have never done the walk of shame and I have fallen asleep in my freshman English class while sitting in the front row* In the game, if you'd done that thing mentioned you'd drink. If you'd never done it, you didn't drink. It was a fun way to get to know strange things about people... with a college-type twist.
Anyhoo, I type the question "have you ever" and am instantly catapulted back in time to those forgettable/unforgettable college days. And it's like I look up and realize-- I'm not 21 anymore! I'm not even IN my twenties anymore. I haven't played "I never" in more years than I can remember because I haven't been "that" girl since oh my gosh-- 8 or is it 9 years ago! I am not even the thing (a teacher) I thought I'd grow up to be anymore! Where did the time go?
But... I am happier. I am more settled. I am deeper. I am thankful for all the days in between-- good, bad, ugly-- because I have been shaped by the days. And I can't wait to see what zany thing I-- or my child does as the day progresses... because I'd rather ask these types of "have you ever" question about you and your kids and the weirdo things we all do.